What my next step?

After the long journey of 3.5 years......I manage to complete the study. So, what next ...... ?
 

Worry on ME :)

A quick update......

- My friends is worry on me as they are now very persistent to introduce more friends to me and enlarge my circle of friends. Since one of my friend really put lots of efforts on arranging lunch then I attended the lunch .....gosh it so weird but surely a good experience for me.

- Things really not happen as what you plan sometimes. April will be a tough months with my aunt admit to hospital ( today is the 4th day ) , my sister will deliver on this month and my convo will be next week. Everyone in the family look really busy and I guess I will lost my room for 1 month since aunt will be staying with us until fully recover. Luckily my mum is good and she just minor hurt on her leg.........

- Work ...nothing special. I still lost the passion as each time I thought I found it but in another second I lost it......

- Book a trip for next year  - Really hope I can make it !!!

Keep telling myself everything will be ok :)

I need more sleep.....

It have been 2 weeks .....I had dreams every night....
Dreaming really make me tired.....I dont know why this happen.
This have cause me consume lots of panadol.... I think I finish at least 6 tablets.
Hmmmm......I really try to control myself not to consume any Panadol.

I do miss my old office location as well for the past  2 weeks because of the strategic location.
The old office is so convenience and when I am lazy or tired .....my bro in law or sister can drop me to work......

 

Oppps...30 years old ("@")

Officially I am 30 years old !!!

 

What really in my mind now is…. I really feel blessed and appreciate that GOD provide me with an understanding family and supportive friends. Guess when grow older I know how to appreciate more compare when young.

This Saturday my friend call me and tell me that her sister text her that she want to commit suicide…..and in my mind is what happen to this little girl. What I can do is just provide some advice as I think the best things I can do is listening and learning.  I am thinking and try to imagine what is her little sister is thinking when she send out the text………she just 23 years old.

Just wonder why sometimes I can provide support and advice but I cannot heal myself when I am in dilemma. Recently, I really try my  best to control my anger and emotional…..I just wonder when I have the courage to walk away from what am I doing. I guess I am worry on how people look on me.....that the reason why I am holding back my decision.

I have keep telling myself that everywhere is the same……this is working life. I just not sure how long this myth able to keep me stay in my current roles. I really not happy and do not have passion at all in my work. I am complaining and keep complaining.....seriously I really feel to accept unequal treatment is hard. I really wish there is Angel or miracle happen in my life such as win a lottery ticket and become and billionaire......guess this is the best soluation.

 

Happy Snake Year

Snake year and what is my new year resolutions......
I will start today post with snake year resolutions.......which should be snake more :)

Oh ya....I am officially out of the tunnel but I am preparing myself to face the hardest road along my journey by waiting someone to walk alone with me - hahahaha ( pressure from my dad, relative and friend during CNY ). Anyway, I promiseto take good care of myself.

Ok - here is the list of resolutions:

• Vacation
• Learn Guitar
• Sports...sports.....sports - reduce my weight
• Charity
• Find a job that you loves
• Be more happy
• Learn to love myself more.....
• Cook more, bake more......

This list look really general and guess this is the best for me......

 

January Recap.....

January Recap......

• Brother back to home for 1 week.
• Short vacation to Langkawi.
• Feeling tired as this months I have hits at least 4 -5 days back at 8pm from office :(
• Still feel dissapointed ... and thinking what should I do .....
• Finish about half books of the Steve Jobs by Walter Issacson  ....
• Finish my MBA-IB final - waiting for the results ...
• Back to sports activities.

Ok, what else happen ...... Personally I still feel really tired mentally and feel uncertainty. I wish I really don't think about it but sometimes really cannot control. Thinking of tomorrow reporting to work after holiday really bad.

I really no motivation recently to work .......maybe because I cannot finish my work at all. Anyway, I still walking in the tunnel alone and it really colds and scary. Just wonder will I collapse due to I am really tired.

I also have lots of bad dreams and this really disturb my sleeping even during my vacation in Langkawi ......

1. Dream of my car lost
2. Dream of I have accident
3. Dream of I have been hospitalized

What us the sign of all this bad dreams.......an alert for myself ?

Dreams .....

I believe everyone have dreams.....
I just reading an article regarding "The Importance of Following Yours Dreams"
http://www.off-the-path.com/2013/01/the-importance-of-following-your-dreams/

I am really looking forward for my Langkawi Trip....
I guess this is the time for me to re-think and plan on what I want in my next milestone of life.

Today I managed wake-up in the morning and join the speedbadminton games in Youth Park.
and as usual, I manage to expand my circle of friends by meeting some new peoples.....
Is kinda been long time, I not joining any activities.....

Looking forward for Chinese New Year 2013.........