Monday, January 28, 2013

January Recap.....

January Recap......

  • Brother back to home for 1 week.
  • Short vacation to Langkawi.
  • Feeling tired as this months I have hits at least 4 -5 days back at 8pm from office :(
  • Still feel dissapointed ... and thinking what should I do .....
  • Finish about half books of the Steve Jobs by Walter Issacson  ....
  • Finish my MBA-IB final - waiting for the results ...
  • Back to sports activities.
Ok, what else happen ...... Personally I still feel really tired mentally and feel uncertainty. I wish I really don't think about it but sometimes really cannot control. Thinking of tomorrow reporting to work after holiday really bad.

I really no motivation recently to work .......maybe because I cannot finish my work at all. Anyway, I still walking in the tunnel alone and it really colds and scary. Just wonder will I collapse due to I am really tired.

I also have lots of bad dreams and this really disturb my sleeping even during my vacation in Langkawi ......

  1. Dream of my car lost
  2. Dream of I have accident
  3. Dream of I have been hospitalized

What us the sign of all this bad alert for myself ?

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Dreams .....

I believe everyone have dreams.....
I just reading an article regarding "The Importance of Following Yours Dreams"

I am really looking forward for my Langkawi Trip....
I guess this is the time for me to re-think and plan on what I want in my next milestone of life.

Today I managed wake-up in the morning and join the speedbadminton games in Youth Park.
and as usual, I manage to expand my circle of friends by meeting some new peoples.....
Is kinda been long time, I not joining any activities.....

Looking forward for Chinese New Year 2013.........

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Third time have this thoughts in 2012

Again.....this pops up in my mind again.
Three time in 9 days ......
Just wonder what happen to me.....

April - officially 8 years in procurement.
Basically what have I achieved? Nothing.....
Have working in a company revenue about 6 billion USD, then move to a company which file a chapter 11 and current is a new set-up company in PEN.....

Is that a time for me to move to another industry which I have passion ..... give back to society or after 8 years I only realize that I not really fit in this areas.

I know I need to make a decision soon as I hate the feeling of doing what I dislike every week.
I cannot performance at all.......
Just stay tune for the next update.

Another thoughts in my mind is remove my FB account in 2013.
Not sure why I have this thought ........ maybe is time for me to work on something......

* This really a special place where can I write out my thoughts and get advice from my friends who is care for me as limited people have this blogs link  and do know me personally *


Monday, January 7, 2013

Feeling not good.....

10.26pm 7 JAN 2013.....
Feeling not good as super tired.......
What I am doing now..........something that I dislike but need to clear.
Gosh !!!!

You are right !!! I am emo now.

Sunday, January 6, 2013

Great Weekend !!!

First weekend of the year 2013.....
In the morning, take care my little nephew....
It is really tired taking care of little monster but I am happy to play with him......

The rest of the day, I just watch youtube.....
I really can spend more than 8 hours browsing and I feel amaze with myself as well :)
After dinner, I just clean up my room.

Manage to re-read an old book "He's just not that into you".
I found this book when I am cleaning my room.......
If I remembered correctly, this is a book given by my sister 4-5 years back.

I not sure how true is the theory on this book regarding man.......but it was a nice book.


Friday, January 4, 2013

Spanish 2 - will this be my last paper for MBA ?

Will this be my last paper for the MBA course?
I really hope it will be as I don't want to retake this subject......
In my whole entire study journey, I never been so worry on examination....
but this round I am super duper worry...
I do think I prepare for the examination but I just don't know why I cannot really remember ....
This should be the easiest paper for the entire MBA course but for me this is the hardest paper because I have no interest on this language.......

Nothing much can do just patiently wait for the results on mid of February.
The worst case is just retake and I still able to complete the course by this years.

* I will only feel relief if I confirm complete my MBA course *

Below is my advice to those who plan to take the part-time MBA course :
  • Don't change job during the study period.
  • Don't defer your study.


Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Wrap Up 2012

Time really flies and again for me to write on the 2012 wrap-up......Overall it was a fanstactic year for me !!!  First let's refresh back the 2012 New Year Resolutions as below :
  • Spend more times with family member. - Partially achieve -
  • Open up my heart. - I am ..... -
  • Upgrade my skills especially in the tactical procurement (which I really dislike).      - I still dislike but keep improving -
  • Learn to be patient. (Biggest obstacle as I am not a really patient type of people).     -Learning hard for this as I still not good on this -
  • Ensure that my room will be 100% ready. - Done-
  • Get a study table.  -Done, with monitor as well-
  • Complete my MBA project management this year.  - Not able to complete -
  • Read more books, news and etc- Just manage to complete 5 books this year -
  • Plan a place for vacation . -Not really have a good vacation -
  • Don’t be lazy and try to groom to office. -Partially achieve -
  • Exercise and workout on my ideal weight. -Fail, as I put on weight -
  • Join at least 5 or more 10Km run. - Not manage to achieve 5 but have success for my first 21k -
  • Baking and cooking (I need to get a oven for the baking).  - oven bought , but less baking and cooking -
  • Be confident in myself and do align with heart & brain. -Heart and Brain still not allign as heart is more stronger -
  • Think positive and find enjoyment in what I am doing. -Trying hard and still not really achieve -.
  • Treat people good. -Trying to treat people with heart as really happy when some of them feel it :) -
  • Keep contact with the old friends no matter how busy. ( I will try to do this as I know I not really get in touch with most of my old friend due to my busy schedule).  - Trying but not really do that yet -
  • Save money - need to control spending. -Not really achieve as the India Trip really spend a lots -

Let's see some of the photo of 2012 :

New office Site - Batu Maung -
Donate Blood - Suntech Building -
First time - Bon Odori in Penang -
Chrsitmas Eve Dinner with 1988
First 21 Km Run

CNY gathering with beloved bro and sis - always miss you !!

HArd Rock Run - not join this round but team to collect shirts.

Herritage Walk while searching for the India Visa Centre

Trip to KL less than 24 hours to attend best friend wedding

                                     In newspaper........ :)
India Trip - very interesting and memorable trip

                                                             My cube......

Gotong-Royong event

CNY event

Donation Event

PDS training

Day trip to Perak with Tracy

Spanish 1 class - Pass the exam -
Trip to Teluk Intan with 1988
Spanish 2 class - exam 4 Jan -
Starwalk 2012 - First time -
Chirstmas Gift 2012 - received on 31 December 201